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It’s been a pretty good week, which was much-needed after the miserable state that I was in just a few weeks ago. I’m not 100% but I’m feeling better.

So…Five Good Things That Happened In My Life This Week:

*I talked to my dad – may seem like a small thing, but for me it’s a big deal. My father and I were estranged for several years, but we reconnected & buried the hatchet when I was home last summer. Since then we’ve both made an effort to communicate & rebuild our relationship, and I’m very grateful to have my father’s presence in my life. We had a chat this weekend about some of the things I want to accomplish, and he was very supportive & had some great ideas for me.

* My big project is turning out to be a success – I came very close to quitting my job in February – like just packing up my stuff & throwing them the deuces, and this project was a big reason why. It’s been a trainwreck from the very beginning, and it got extremely bad, but since then it has gone much better. I managed to turn the project around & make it work, and now I’m finally getting good results. After all the stress of this project & the numerous hassles & hurdles, I’m proud of myself for making it through this very difficult project & literally kicking its ass.

* My new site is ready to go – I am so super excited to launch the new site next week. I’ve been working with a logo designer to design a logo for the new site, & I absolutely love it. Overall I love everything about the new site & I’m so excited to be blogging over there. This really is the culmination of the change that happened in my writing – I went from mostly random posts & not giving it much thought, to really being invested in my writing, my site & my brand. I hope that you guys love it as much as I do.

* I interviewed for a new job – the same day that I was interviewing technicians to work for me, I had my own interview for a new job. The job would be a promotion & a move into management, but I’m not sure I want it. I don’t want to make another bad move, like I did with my current job, so I don’t want to leap at the first job that comes my way. The interview went very well & they have invited me back for a final interview with the larger team.

*I kicked it with the homies – It’s been a long, cold winter, and I didn’t get to see my friends as much as I wanted to. Now that it’s warming up, we’re doing more activities. I spent some time kicking it with my friends SS & DN & it was good to catch up with them & hang out. It had been awhile, & I really missed them. I can’t wait to have another spring & summer of the antics with those two, plus some of my other friends.

Honorable mention – I reconnected with an old friend. I made a move, & it was received well. Things have picked up like we never were out of contact, & I’m happy about that. I missed my friend.

It’s been a good week. Hopefully next week will be even better 😉


Today is a very busy day for me.

Today is interview day.

This morning I am interviewing technicians to serve as my hands on the big project I’ve been managing at my job. The method we are bringing online in very involved & requires a lot of hands-on time, time that I simply don’t have. So my boss finally got the powers that be to approve hiring a technician, so I will no longer be chained to this project #yay

I’ve been an interviewer before a few times, but it’s always interesting to be the one conducting the interview.

Especially today.

After I conduct interviews, I’m driving across town to interview for a position.

That’s right, I will be both the interviewer and the interviewee in the span of about 3 hours.

I’m not sure if I want this job, moreso because I don’t want to make another hasty, ill-planned move. I want my next move to be a better move…and moving to my current job was not. I do not want to repeat this experience, so I have to do a better job of ascertaining whether a position is an upgrade or a downgrade. I do not want to jump to a new position solely to get out of a bad situation.

But in the meantime…I have an interview.

Wish me luck!


Ever taken a Myers-Briggs Test?

The Myers-Briggs Type Indicator is a personality inventory questionnaire, and it’s often used as part of an overall job/career assessment. Knowing your Myers-Briggs type can help you figure out what careers you’re best suited for, as well as just give you general information about your personality, and your outlook on the world.

Myers-Briggs has 4 dichotomies:

  • Extraversion – Introversion
  • Sensing – Intuition
  • Thinking – Feeling
  • Judgement – Perception

How you score in each of the four dichotomies makes up your overall Myers-Briggs type, which is made up of letters from all four dichotomies. So for example, you’ll hear people refer to themselves as an ESTP or an INTJ.

I took the Myers-Briggs the other day, because the attorney mentioned it, and I realized that I hadn’t taken it since I was in high school. I knew I was an “E” given my super-extroverted nature, but I wasn’t sure about the rest of my type.

If you wanna take the Myers-Brigg, try this one:

So what is Jubi’s type? I’m an ENFP, also known as a Champion, which fits under the Idealist grouping.

Champions are:

  • rare – only 3-4% of the population
  • very in touch with their emotions & the emotions of others
  • view life as a great drama & strive to have new experiences
  • very individualistic
  • often write or speak to share truth & knowledge with others
  • have strong intuitive powers
  • are observers & able to observe/read other people
  • are very good with people & have strong personal relationships
  • are very good in public, especially speaking in public
  • are spontaneous & dramatic

Champions often find careers as a counselor, teacher, writer, journalist, publicists, advertising execs, scientists, engineers, entrepreneurs, and inventors.

I’d say that my Myers-Briggs type describes me well 😉 I’m extremely extroverted; I draw my energy from other people and I love to socialize with others. I am a very emotional person; as I get older I’ve learned how to rely on my emotional intelligence & intuitions as it relates both my life & also in my dealings with other people. As many of my friend’s know, I’m an inquisitive person, and I love to study other people, either through questions or simply through observation. Spontaneity & the desire to constantly have new experiences are definitely a part of my personality.

As for the careers part, well let’s see…I’m currently I’m a scientist/engineer. Over the past few years (especially the last year) I’ve embraced the writer in me & discovered my voice. And my ultimate goal is to be an entrepreneur…looks like all of that fits right in with my personality type.

Have you ever done the Myers-Briggs? What’s your personality type? Does it describe you?

Since last summer, when I first admitted to myself that I was unhappy in my career & needed a change, I’ve been considering the idea of going back to school. At various times I’ve been flip-flopping between a strong interest/desire to go back to school, and a strong aversion to additional schooling. Right now, I’m back on the “I might need to go back to school” side of the pendulum.

Currently I hold a BS and MS in chemistry. Lots of technical training, but that’s it. I’m very good technically at what I do, but now I have additional interests & areas that I want to master, that are way outside of my training. Areas like business development, entrepreneurship, finance, accounting, marketing, and management/HR. I’m not expecting to be an expert in all those areas, but right now I don’t even have a foundation in those areas, beyond what I’ve picked up in my almost 5 years in the corporate world. Right now I can’t really transition out of engineering & into the types of positions I want, because I only have a technical background, with no formal business training. In order to move out of engineering/sciences, which I desperately want to do, I either need some formal training, or someone to take a chance on me & allow me to learn on the job.

My ultimate goal is to own my own business – actually several businesses. I want to control my own destiny. I don’t mind hard-work at all, in fact, I enjoy it. But I want the fruit of those labors to directly benefit me, in more ways than simply a salary and benefits from an employer. If I’m going to give my effort and my time, I want it to be for me & mine, not simply to line the pockets of executives & investors. I won’t work 80-hour weeks for my current job, but I definitely will for my own business.

So why am I on the fence about going back for the MBA? Well there are a couple of factors. First, there is the money problem. I have more than enough student loan debt, and I am not interested in adding to it. In my perfect world, I wouldn’t have to pay a dime for my MBA, and I’d really like to make that happen. I am a realist & I know that’s hard to do, and that’s why I’m hesitant. One option is doing a part-time MBA program & utilizing a tuition reimbursement program through my employer. My current employer changed their tuition reimbursement program, and they now require a 5 year commitment AFTER the completion of the last class is completed, and with a 3-year program, that’s 8 years that I would have to stay #nobueno. So if I want to go the tuition reimbursement route, I have to change employers.

I’m also on the fence because of my age. I will be 29 in July, and if I decide to do a full-time program, the soonest I could begin is Fall 2012, and I would be 30. I’d graduate when I was 32. Do I really want to be in my 30s and back in school? Would I be deemed “too old”? Can I be a grown-up & go back to the life of a poor graduate student? I remember that life, and it was hard enough in my early 20’s. Now I have grown-up bills & responsibilities & I’m not sure if my finances can handle it. I’m not sure if my ego can handle being a 30+ year old graduate student.

My final hesitation about getting the MBA is simply if it is worth it. I know that I don’t want to be a cog in the corporate wheel for the rest of my life. I know I want to do my own thing & be my own boss. Will an MBA help me on that path, or will it simply train me to work for someone else & be a slave to a system that I’m desperate to escape from? I don’t want to spend 2-3 years and thousands of dollars on a piece of paper that won’t help me get to my ultimate goal. I don’t want to waste my time or my money, and I refuse to do so. I know that all the advice in the world won’t be able to guarantee that the time & money spent on an MBA is worth it in achieving my life goals…but it will help me decide whether or not I’m willing to take a chance on an MBA.

So here’s where I ask for advice…if you were in my position, what would you do? Given what I want to do, is an MBA worth it? Should I be worried about being a 30+ year old MBA student? And most important – any suggestions on how I can get my MBA paid for?

Yes this is another post about my job.

Everyday I come home miserable. I try to minimize the amount of time I spend at work. I job hunt every night. And the damn situation just keeps getting worse.

So I have a ridiculous number of projects on my plate because my company, or at least the part of the company that I work for, is too cheap to hire another chemist, even thought that’s really what we need. There is absolutely no way that I can get everything done without working 80 days, and I refuse to give them more than 40, so there’s a lot of stuff that just doesn’t get done, because I don’t have time.

About six months into my tenure at the job, I was given the assignment of Project X. Project X is an analytical test method that is supposed to be implemented at my site, by me. I’d love to give some details on this thing, but in an effort to not be sued I’ll try to stay as general as possible. Basically, someone else sat on this project until I got hired, and I think they did it on purpose because they knew this thing was gonna be a trainwreck. I have zero background in the subject matter, the people who do are non-responsive, and so far all I’ve gotten are incomplete instructions/procedures and incorrect calculations. My boss is now hands-on involved in this whole mess because her bosses are breathing down her neck, and at every turn she’s telling me where I fucked up. Well, its real easy to fuck up when you absolutely no help, incorrect instructions, and unresponsive subject matter experts.

As of today, Project X is my #1 priority. My entire slate of projects have been either pushed or reassigned to other people. I am literally chained to this project in the lab & will be so until its working & validated…at that time I’ll be able to train a technician to do it.

Yall have no idea how much my desire to quit has intensified. I’d love nothing more than to tell these folks “I fucking quit! Deuces” and bounce. I don’t want to remain professional & not burn bridges. I fucking hate this job, I hate what these people have put me through, and I hate that I fell for this stupid bait-and-switch in the first place. This is NOT what I was told I’d be doing, and had I known, I would have kept my ass in Florida. I’d be enjoying warm weather, outlet malls, & good food with LM right now. But noooooooooooooo, my ass had to want to leave & stuff, and now here I am. One step away from either snapping & quitting, or losing my mind & ending up on a 72hour hold.

I wonder if my mom would let me move home if I quit my job….

In January 2010 I left Orlando behind & moved back to Minneapolis. I got a new job, and was finally escaping Florida, which I really didn’t care for. I’ve loved Minneapolis since the first time I came to visit for college & it had been on the list of cities I could see myself settling down permanently in.

This past year has had more than its fair share of ups & downs, maybe more than previous years in my life.

Let’s start with the ups:

  • I reconnected with old friends & made new ones – When I first moved to Orlando it took me about a year to really start meeting people who I clicked with & it wasn’t until my last year there that I really had a core group of friends. My experience in Mpls has been completely different; I was able to make some new friends pretty easily & reconnect with some college friends as well. That helped my transition a lot, I was active & engaged as opposed to sitting in my apartment bored to death.
  • I started making real changes in my life – I struggle with discipline & being able to sustain change in my life, and that was very apparent when I lived in Orlando. I wanted to work on 2 things – my health/weight & my finances. Being in Mpls I’ve made significant changes in both which I’m very proud of. Now that I no longer have close proximity to outlet malls & also more activities to do besides shopping, my finances look a lot better & I’m making progress towards my financial goals. On the health/weight thing, I’ve finally found a lifestyle that works for me & that I can sustain longterm, and so far I’ve lost over 40 pounds. I feel better, I look better, and my wallet looks better too #win.
  • My dating life got better – Dating in Orlando was a challenge for me, for numerous reasons that I’ve outlined in various posts. Basically, it just wasn’t my type of place & I didn’t meet a lot of men that I go for. That completely changed when I moved back to Mpls – I had only been back about 3 weeks before my first date with the attorney. Over the course of 2010, for most of the year I was dating at least one person, which was nice. Everything didn’t go my way in the romance department but I had options, which was a plus.
  • I’m more involved in the community & activities – So far in my year in Minneapolis, I joined & then became the leader of a Meetup group for Black women. I volunteered for the Twin Cities Fringe Festival & had a great time. I’ve gotten involved in volunteer opportunities through my alma mater. I’ve been to all kinds of festivals & fairs, from Oktoberfest to the Anarchists Book Fair (very cool btw).

And now the downs:

  • I hate hate HATE the job I moved here for – Yes this is not a secret, I’ve blogged at length about how much I hate this damn job. In fact, I really feel like I made the wrong decision in accepting it. Yes, it got me out of Orlando, but I simply swapped my issues. I went from a city I hated but a job I enjoyed, to a  city I love & a job that’s making me wanna slit my wrists just so I don’t have to go. And that is unhealthy. I was so inpatient in wanting to get out of Orlando that I jumped at the first opportunity to leave and I regret that decision. So now I have to work extra hard to not go insane while I hunt for another job. I don’t want to repeat the same mistake I made here, by going for the first thing offered to me, but I don’t know how long I can last.
  • My heart was broken – 2010 was both an up & down year for dating for me. Yeah I dated a lot, but I definitely struggled in the dating department. First with the attorney, who I caught feelings for when he just wanted to be casual, and the Vegas dude, who I caught feelings for but I suspect I was just a rebound for him. So basically, catching feelings is bad business for Jubi cause they seem to not be reciprocated. *sigh* I haven’t really been dating since the beginning of the year, my heart just isn’t in it, or at least it’s not up for another tragedy. So I’m just going to be on the sidelines for a while.

Overall 2010 was a pretty good year, more ups than downs. I’ve genuinely enjoyed being back in the Midwest, back in Minneapolis, and most importantly, out of Orlando. For the most part I’ve been happier, though lately the stress & unhappiness at my job has been taking over my life.

Here’s hoping my second year in Minneapolis will be even better.

My dismal work situation has been the topic of several posts lately, including this one where I felt extremely disrespected at work & almost quit on the spot. Since that incident in December, it seems like folks have been at least attempting to stay on my good side & be more respectful.

A few weeks ago, I got an email saying that I received an award, similar to a bonus, as a thank you for all the extra work I had done for a big project. #Yay, finally some recognition of the work that I’ve been doing for folks. Instead of just giving cash, my company allows you to choose a giftcard from one of hundreds of stores for your award. I decided to get a Barnes & Noble giftcard, and I used it towards this:

That’s right – I got a NOOKcolor!

Months ago I made a list of Five Gadgets on my Wish List, and a E-reader was on the top of the list. I got a chance to play with my friend’s NOOKcolor while I was in Atlanta & I really liked it. When the opportunity presented itself to get one, I jumped at it #yay.

Incidently, I also got a new Blackberry Bold a few weeks ago, so I can scratch two items off that list.

Are any of you NOOK users? What tips do I need to know? Any good sites for books? Let me know!

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